Three

Tonight I tucked in my sweet 2 year old son for the last time. Tomorrow he will be 3.  My second born, my baby for a while.  For the first time ever, he asked me to lay beside him as he went to sleep tonight.  I had a million other things on my mind and dirty dishes from supper calling my name.  I took him up on his offer and my heart was blessed indeed.  I laid there and thought about how my first born wanted me to lay beside her every night, I had to often tell her no because I knew it would just prolong her going to sleep.  It's sad really that your first child gets way more attention than the second.  It's true. No longer is it just one on one, now I am outnumbered and have to find a way to give more of myself. Now add #3 and it's just a circus.

Nathan is my sweet loving little boy. Full of life and curiosity.  Looking for the next opportunity to do something he's not supposed to.  In one minute he can destroy a room and melt my heart.  Time flies by so fast and just the thought of any of my children growing up breaks me into pieces.  Nevertheless, I love celebrating the day of their birth each year.  Here's to another year full of life with you, Nathan.

Dearest sweet boy,
I almost cannot even think about your sweet face without tearing up.  I prayed for a son and here you are.  There is nothing in this world that can express how much I love you.  From the time you could move around you were into everything and much hasn't changed.  At times you make me want to pull my hair out but then you smile so sweetly at me and run up to me for a hug and I cave. Every time. Some of my favorite moments with you are when you are ready for nap or bed and you want to curl up with me in the recliner.  I know it's hopeless but it is nice to think that you will never be too big for mommy's lap!  You love to pester your sister and I am sure you will have a blast teasing Annalise when she is old enough too.  You love everything about daddy. You want to be just like him and that's ok by me.  Nothing brings him joy more than seeing you imitate the things he does.  What a great daddy you have son.  Tomorrow morning we will begin a day of celebrating your 3rd birthday.  I am so thrilled to be your mommy and to share this day with you.  I pray that God will continue to capture your heart and grow you into the man he has designed you to be. A man of honor, character and a man who desires to be like Christ.  I love you sweet boy. Happy Birthday.

Love,
mommy