Three.Six.Five

365 days ago I held my baby boy for the first time.  I never would have guessed how different it would be to love a son. There is no way to explain the heart to heart connection, it's all in the experience and nothing could compare.

My sweet Nathaniel,
You have captured my heart in a way that just can't be put into words.  Today you are one.  One silly little boy with one little crazy smile and one cute belly laugh that melts my insides.  You are so aware of how much you are loved by us all, but deep down I wonder if you really know how much I love you.  I can only hope that by my actions, I can show you love the way God teaches us so that one day you will love like that in return to the ones you love (including your wife...boo hoo!) 

Some of the things that I love right now is how you wrinkle your nose every time you laugh.  How you get so excited that you just open your mouth and scream until nothing is left!  How you jump up and down and squeal when I come into your room in the morning and anytime I pick you up from the church nursery.  A few nights ago you let me rock you to sleep in my arms.  You still love to be held and rocked and I will savor every moment of that.  You still aren't walking but I'm not worried.  You are a racing machine on all fours, I can barely keep up with you now.

You adore everything about your sister and you two are becoming such great friends.  I can't wait to see how this year will bring you closer together.

I love you son and pray that God will pursue you so that you may know Him and follow after Him in all that you do.  Happy Birthday Nathan Paul.  You had my heart before you were ever born.

11 Months

 

Sweet Nathan,

Man what a handful you have become!  You are into everything, everywhere, all the time and quicker than I can keep up with.  You are the stinker!  You love the fireplace, the media cabinet, under the sink cabinet, and your new favorite-the toilet!  You have enough toys to keep you busy all day but you would rather play with anything else.

You just got over ear infection #8 and you are scheduled for tubes in your ears on Tuesday.  Finally, maybe you will eat.  At 22 pounds, I don't think you are starving but lately you have been spitting out anything I feed you besides Puffs!  You sleep through the night most of the time but I think your ears just keep you from sleeping soundly.

We are still waiting for more teeth, you still only have 2 on the bottom and that is it.  You have been super fussy the past few weeks and I keep thinking that new teeth are coming in any day but still no sign.

You have been waving bye bye for quite a few months now.  You love to babble and say da- da for everything.  You definitely have an attitude when it comes to getting what you want, especially went it comes to your sister.  You want what she has no matter what it is and will let everyone know if you are not happy.

I love your sweet spirit-you are a lot like your sister in that way.  I love coming into your room in the morning and after nap time to see your smiling face greet me.  You giggle when you see me come in the room and squeal with happiness.  I still rock you when I can but you prefer daddy to do that.  No one can put you to sleep like he can.

You still are a little scared to walk.  You are ready physically but as soon as you realize you are standing alone, you sit down and crawl-very fast too!  I guess you realize you can get there quicker that way right now.

The ladies at BSF just adore you.  I didn't take you this week because it was so cold and you had just gotten over a cold.  The ladies were so sad!  You are just a joy to be around all the time.  I love you baby boy and cannot believe you will be 1 in just a few weeks!